23.7.09

Nanko's absent (媽媽心情)

Sending Nanako and Mom to HST, they are heading to Tainan. Just 2 of us stand there to see of their back disappear in the crowd. It seems like a rehearsal for the 1st seperation between elder parents and their grown-up Kid. We, the parents, stand there to see her off but Nanako, my 14 months old daughter, is so exciting that she does not kiss goodbye to us & is eagerly to catch the train. Her attention is wholeheartedly focus on grandma's backpack. It's the most important thing in her eyes becasue it packs with cloths, bottles, and diappers. It's the one she cares most today. When grandma asked her to take a nap this afternoon, she demanded to take the backpack to living room, in this way, she can watch out when she was awake.

Just two of us tonight. It's dinner time, so we go to 2nd floor for dinning. No nanako's accompany, I ought to eat freely but I just can't get used to it... Once you are a mother, you'll never be have a single mind.... After that, Shawn shops for his suits as father's Day gift. I was extremely tired during his shipping because of lack of sleep past few nights.

Though, Nanako is just away 2 hrs, I started to miss her. My heart is lighten when I received her phone call, sister said 2 kids are very happy in this journey. Grandpa is happy too, i can tell that papa's juicy voice through the phone.

On our way home, I feel want to cry becasue of no nanako in car. Shawn talks to me and triesto distract my attention. When I was home, I had time to take a bath and to do facial mask (couple nights ago, I covered my face with facial mask, nanako saw it and cried bitterly because she was scared by the change on my face, so I was forced to tear off the mask immediately. ) Tonight, I can do whatever I want to do. Later, I got another call from papa. They put nanako to the phone and sing to me. Her singing is pretty beautiful. I can tell how happy they are in Luchu with grandparents. As for me, switching TV from this channel to that channel, I am tired but I just can't sleep at all.

Night is so long without my previous daughter..