I miss you

2009/4/22

It's your 1st trip, travelled with grandma to Kaoshiung. Mom did not accompany with you. You're happy when grandma wore the red coat and carried you. When we were walking out of door, you said "Go" and smiling. Usually, you go to Dan-Shuei with Grandma to visit grandgrand ma, so you're excited to go out. This time, it is a long journey. You were going to Kaohsiung because grandpa's leg was hurt and swollen. Too swollen to walk, so grandma decided to carried you and rush back because you are the one she cared the most. Dodobao and Da-mi went with you, too for checking what's happening to grandpa. It turned out that you and dodobao stayed in Kaohsiung till grandpa is recovery.

It's okay with Mom in daytime. But when night came, your image kept jump out of my mind. Every step I walked, I thought of you. When I was in MRT, I saw a little girl like your age, I can't help but think of you. I have to bear the tears.... When I was on Muzha line, I think the day that I go to work after you was 2 month old. I remeber that time, I was happy to take MRT home becasue I saw you when I was home. Not this time.... I was home all alone. I teared on the bus.. No one found becasue of darkness. I was upstair and saw your toys spread everywhere in our living room. I cried.... I miss you so much.... This is our 1st seperation. Dami and Daddy said just pretend that you go to a vocation and will return couple of days. Yes, but it is eaier to say. We stick to each other 359 nights, so it's a torture to sleep without you. I went to bed and saw your pillow, I am painful for seeing that empty space.... That night, mom fall asleep at 3.00am. It's a long night. Next day I wear a pair of swollen eyes to office.

Day 2, I finally got a chance to talk to grandma. Grandma told that you're getting used to life in Koahsiung. You were happy to go downstair and to meet new people. The most important thing is grandma told mom that we can go home and bring you back to Taipei during the weekend. It's great to know that. I finally can enjoy rest of day 2 & night 2 because we can meet each other the next night. I can finish all jobs and go for some errands and had a date with Daddy... It's not bad.

Day 3, it's the day! I had good mood. It's the best thing that I can hold you tightly that night. The wonderful thing is that I stayed in Luju for following 2 nights. I was hurt when I saw you because you don't recognise mom when I stood in front of you. It took a while for you to refresh and recognize... When we upstair, you finally know that mommy is here and very closed to me. I can feel that you missed me, too.

Day 4, Grandma can take care of you 2. Da-mi and I went for shopping. Though time is short, we feel good. Just like the good old time. (when we were single) Then Sat. afternoon, grandpa drove us to 3rd uncle grandpa's place. That's your 1st time to meet these relatives. We've happy time there.

Day 5, go to sweet home. Grandma will go to Taipei on Monday morning.