又是女兒之壓力...?

4/24 material inspection - 18w+.. Dr. told me that it's she. I felt released to know the gender... Frankly to speaking, I felt stressful when gender is unknown. When I realized it is she, I accept the truth. Having a girl, I'll keep woman's hormones and being beauty after labor delivery. Having a girl, she can share a room, clothing and secrets with Nanako. I have a sister, so I know how close sisters will be.

That's night, I told Shawn that it's a daughter again. He asked me: will you feel stressful? This is a stupid question.. I don't feel stressful on the gender. If you're educated, you'll know man's Y decided gender. Woman's womb is responsible for carrying baby and labor delivery. How come Woman should bear the gender pressure? Besides, I don't want 2nd baby at all in the very beginning, he is the one who insists on having 2nd baby.

If I felt stressful, that's because I am worrying how to raise 2 kids with our tighten financial status. I just get ride of a lacking sleeping from 2 year nursing Nanako and now everything have to start over again.. And I am not ready to be 2 kids mom.. If I felt stressful that's because my mom in law called my mom that she offered to take Nanako to Kaohsiung and take care of her. For me, nanako is not a burden. She is only kid I really want, no need for her to take nanako back to Kaohsiung. And Nanako is schooling, no bother for her to take care of Nanako. If she is out of good willingness, then we'll be thankful for her to take care of baby 2 24 hours in my home.